Present over Perfect

This is on my mind lately…

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I fight against the messy, disastrous chaos of  life. I rage, yell and pound my elbow against the counter to try to silence the voice yelling in my head. I fight to breathe. Tears get stuck in the back of my eyes.

I can’t keep doing this to myself.

I must embrace this mantra. For my family. My soul. For love.

I can do this. I can be here in this messy, beautiful moment.

Right now.

This moment is perfect in its completeness.

I can be in it. Here. Now.

Not perfectly.  Enough

Side note of excitement: Shauna Niequist is writing a book called Present Over Perfect.

 

February Fun!

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Baking with the Littles:

Make these No-Bake Granola Bars with Coconut Oil from FiveHeartHome

Or these 3-ing ones from GracefullLittleHoneyBee:

Healthy Samoa Bars-http://graincrazy.blogspot.com/2014/10/i-havent-often-seen-people-make.html

Just for Me

Watch this fun video with Kimberly Wilson and have fun with my planner

Pour over the beautiful seed catalog from RareSeeds. So pretty!

Roll some Crepe Paper Roses from the IdeaRoom

PlayDough Mania

Basic Play Dough-1 c water, 1 c flour, 1/2 c salt/ 2tbsp cream of tarter and 1 tbsp. vegetable oil. Pink and red are a must. With glitter and perhaps cinnamon to spice it up.

There is a silky & stretchy play dough from LaughingKidsLearn that looks fun: 1 c conditioner, 2 c cornstarch. I have a few opened-long-ago travel-sized bottles of conditioner I am going to use. Glitter optional. Wait, glitter is never an option, it’s a MUST!

Gluten-Free Baking Soda Play Dough from FrugalFarmWife: 2 c baking soda, 1 c cornstarch, 1 1/2 c water & 1 tbsp. oil. Mix ing over a sauce pan over med heat, stirring constantly. Baking soda will fizz before it starts to thicken. Fun! Take it off the heat as soon as it’s thick enough to start wanting to stick together. Let cool, paritally covered until it can be handled. Separate into balls and color. I used wilton icing gel colors left over from my cake decorating days and really loved the results.

Frozen Play Dough from time2saveworkshops.  needed: 1 c flour ¼ c salt 1 ½ Tbsp  cream of tartar 1 Tbsp  vegetable oil 1 c boiling water Blue food coloring 1 tablespoon of fine glitter (white, silver, and blue are perfect)

Bring water to a boil. Combine all ingredients with the exception of the food coloring and glitter into a bowl. Mix until a paste forms. Continue to knead until soft but not tacky. Then, cook on stove for 4-5 minutes over medium heat, stirring constantly. Add a few drops of blue food coloring and start kneading so the color distributes.  Just sprinkle the glitter on and knead well. Frosted snow play dough can be stored in an air tight container or zip lock bag for several weeks

Crayon Play Dough from SugarAunts

chop up 2 and a half crayons. I

In a large bowl, mix together the dry ingredients-3 c flour, 1 1/2 c salt, 2 Tbsp. cream of tartar

Heat 2 Tbsp of oil in a pan. Add the chopped crayons. Stir until the crayons are completely melted. Slowly stir in 2 c of water while stirring. Certain types of crayons will either make a clumpy purply goopy looking liquid. Other types will make a smooth liquid once the water is added.  Just keep stirring.

Slowly, stir in the dry ingredients. The dough will pull together in a ball over the heat. Once the dough pulls together, dump it out onto a cutting board or counter. Let the dough cool until you can tolerate kneading. Knead the dough for a few minutes until smooth. Note~ The waxy texture of this dough will create a spa-like experience while kneading.

Sweet Valentine Crafts to Create

Footprint Dump Truck Card from SweetandLovelyCrafts

Love Painting with foot & handprints from Examiner

Sweet Paper Heart Chain from TeachWithMe

Sweet Beast Celebrates his 2nd birthday this week with lots of Dino Party Fun!

Sure to be a fun time!

More ideas on my Winter Dreams Board.

This Week I…

Whipped up a coffee scrub– I call them Coffee Scrub Bars: Smell Good. Yum. Glow.

Can’t wait to try it on my face!

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Photo credits all mine!!

Body Butter Bar is next

Made Naughty Caramel Sauce and my fab chocolate chip cookies.

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And can’t wait to try this one Not-So-Naughty Caramel Sauce

Also blended up some Bailey’s with a friend. Umm. Yum!

Joined in Susannah Conway’s #DecemberReflections

“sang” some lyrics to Hannah Marcotti the words of John Legend “All of Me”

I also understanding deeper the Perils of Someone Else’s Dream

I see…

The beauty in me. The beauty in you.

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this one’s a fighter

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Accessories as armor and medicine

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So what’s is in store for the coming week?!

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I Want to Hear

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What do you do when nothing in your life seems to be ok?
What do you do when everything you ever wanted, isn’t yours?
What do you say to yourself to ease the pain and disappointment?
Where do you go to help ease the ache?
What do YOU do?

The tools I used to use no longer work. The things I would do to soothe myself don’t help anymore.

Please give me something new to say to myself. I am so tired of the voice in my head and those around me.

Please.

An honest question.  I want a unique and helpful perspective.

I never feel like I am enough. I long to believe the Universe is for me. I feel heavy.

I feel…
Dark

Sometimes
Happy. Light. Sometimes.

I think I balance near the edges of depression, but I
notice when I am
nearing the abyss and can step back. I think most of my
sadness stems from not
liking myself very much and feeling let down, by myself and
life in general. In
the past my coping mechanisms centered around denial,
running away and ignoring.
I worked a lot, exercised a lot and stayed busy. Being at
home with The
Gentlemen keeps me busy in some ways but not enough to drown
out the negative
voice in my head. Mothering has forced me to look at my
dirt, and it’s necessary
& it sucks. I used to place my value in my
accomplishments.  Now I dont know
where it comes from. I want to be an awesome example for my
Littles (and the
best me I can be) but I want it NOW!! 😉
Thank you
so much for writing back, and for being concerned. I very
deeply appreciate it. I will be sure to keep a close eye on
where I am at with my emotions.

I want to hear…

you are ok

you are enough

you hurt. I know. life hurts. the challenges are painful and there is struggle.

you strive and reach and try and trip. all will be well

you are a blessing. you have worth, even when you fail.

your eyes are filled with tears. mascara all around. you are still beautiful.

always beautiful

people hurt you, so deeply. it’s because you care and because your heart is big and pure and true. you open it up and hope a select few will see the gem inside. sometimes they miss it. that’s on them, not you. keep being open. keep pursuing them. they will come around. hopefully. if not, you are amazing for trying.

maybe. just a thought. you need to focus on you. the love for you is the most important thing you can nurture. don’t worry. it will overflow into others. they get the overflow. a dry well quenches no one.

you matter Charity. I am so proud of you. you make me smile.

please keep up the hope. and the love.

I love you. I love you. I love you.

Dear One, Don’t Give Up Now: A Poem for Self Love

You are

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